Being caught unprepared


Grandma is leaving on a jet plane and I know when she will be back again (2 months and leaving on the 2nd of February) . As my dearest mother in law is busy packing her bags and getting ready to leave the country, we have tried to sort out a battle plan in preparation for the big holiday. We thought we had loads of time to sort out all the nitty gritties.

“Yay” for her and not so “yay” for us as she is our full-time caregiver for our terrors. We have a plan in place for them while she is away. My husbands dad and his wife are going to stay with us from a Monday to a Thursday and then we have a nanny on Fridays half day, the hubby can alleviate later in the afternoon. I wont comment on how lucky he cos he puts in a lot of hard hours after work.

We have planned for months to get the spare bedroom ready, this weekend we were gonna tackle it for real as we were only expecting them on Sunday. We have looked at bunk beds and have bought the paint for the room which is now a study. Discussed where we going to pack the excess, but as luck will have it they came last night! I was in my pj’s putting old moans to sleep when the call came they are in town and looking for our house. All the months of talking and wanting to get it ready left us standing gob smacked in the drive way looking like the circus just drove in, while the car parked neatly in front of our over stocked garage.

Trying to prepare an area in a limited time, while you knew they were coming is tough. Poor grandma 2 had to sleep on the floor, even though she prefers it due to back problems, it was still horrible. They are not here this evening due to personal reasons. But in my crazy state I am thinking they are being polite to give us time to sort out their space so it doesn’t feel like sleeping in a warehouse.

Luke 21:36 (ESV)
36 But stay awake at all times, praying that you may have strength to escape all these things that are going to take place, and to stand before the Son of Man.

1 Thessalonians 5:6 (ESV)
6 So then let us not sleep, as others do, but let us keep awake and be sober.

There are many verses like this that try to prepare us for what is to come. Most of the time we do not take heed, we know the Lord is coming and we are busy drawing up plans and schematics, making sample boards, doing a lot of work but actually doing nothing, we are unprepared.

SO my plan of action now is to stop planning and actually put it in to practice. No harm in having a strategy but with no action is useless. There is a horrible song I heard on the radio where the catchy lyrics went, why do it today if you can do it tomorrow. Procrastinators anthem, if we all had to live our lives like that we will get caught with no chance to rectify that behavior. On that note I have some junk to clear before our guests come back 🙂

Clearing out the garbage

springcleanDeciding what to keep and what too toss is very hard once there is a sentimental bond attached to said item, or some imaginary need that might arise if heaven forbid you had to put in the bin after being in your garage for 5 years.

As much as I hate to admit it, my husband is a hoarder. Not as bad that I need a map to enter my house and gain access to my bedroom, his horde is all contained in one area, the garage. We have moved with his hoard from the apartment to the house and it has minimized but not cleared. I can’t remember the last time the car actually slept inside the garage instead of showing off outside.

There has been debates and pleads, to subtly using his holy attire as cleaning rags, and item mysteriously disappearing without a trace (I will never admit to anything 🙂 ) but on certain items he just wont budge. He has gotten better over the years and actually donated 15 computers that may or may not work to a charity. I was over the moon, knowing that there is hope that we will have our garage back one day.

Clearing out the garage can almost be compared to clearing out internal garbage. We all have items in us that we just don’t want to get rid off, for whatever reason it may be. Spring cleaning those are harder as other people can’t make it disappear when you are not looking or thinking about it. They can be nag bags or stand with highlighted posters to try to steer you in the right direction but that is also no guarantee that it will finally land in the bin.

Jeremiah 29:13-14(ESV)

13 You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.

Jeremiah was talking about seeking God and that you will find him if you are really looking with sincerity,. If we can ask God to show us what needs a good clean in our life, he will show us. We might not enjoy the answers but think of how it feel like once its clean. How does it feel when you clean your house and you admire how everything is in its place, how fresh and welcoming it feels and the satisfaction of knowing you did it.

How different will you feel when you internal house is cleaned? How different will you feel once you earnestly seek God and find him in all your clutter?  I for one cant wait to see what my cleaned house will look once I get pass the rubble.

Hope you all have a blessed week

Be who you are!

IMG_0894I felt like wearing my daughter’s hair accessory the other day, it was shiny and sparkly and ideally worn by a “nearly 3 year old” that has no sense of color coordination, wearing spots and stripes with a swimming costume over it is all the rage. Besides all of that, I wore it too work, and enjoyed the reflection of diamonds in my hair while in the sun, and seeing little disco balls against the wall every time I went outside.

Judgement ranged from its pretty, to it must be your daughters, or just stares that makes you wonder if there is a piece of carrot in my hair from lunch. To be honest this has put a slight damper on my sparkly day and made me reel in the need to wear my kids stuff, even though it shouldn’t matter as she said I look like a princess.

We all have secret desires, even its wearing a wonder woman costume underneath our grown up one, but don’t do it because of other peoples judgement. We wont go jump on the trampoline with our kids in a park for fear of what people will think if they see a grown person let all their wobbly parts wobble for your child’s entertainment and your own (who doesn’t miss being a kid), roll on the grass and wear silly clothes cos your kids decided that is what you should wear. We dampen their spirits by telling them its not OK to be who you are because of what other people might think, because we are not OK with who we are.

There are boundaries in terms of respecting our elders and common courtesy and plain old manners, but why kill all the fun stuff while they are small. Their sense of adventure will eventually dampen down once the teenage years come and school, but why change who they are trying to become and who you secretly wish you were.

1 Samuel 16:7 ESV 

But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.”

If the Lord can see past our outside quirks, why is it so hard for us not to do the same. Why look funny at the person doing something unusual or what normal society thinks is acceptable or not, why judge if they are doing something they like and enjoy doing it but its not in your range of acceptability in your opinion.

I am going to let my daughter do my nails tomorrow, it might be funny colors and more on my skin than my nails but I am going to work it like a model cos she did and is happy to have her handy work modeled. She made mommies nails pretty and had fun doing it.

I wish you all a be yourself day! You are fearfully wonderfully made, quirks and all.